A Couple of Dreams

I have many dreams that I remember, some I do not write down and some that I do.  These are dreams that I have had since my last blog in my life story blog where I was told Not To Post my life story on-line because it makes others feel uncomfortable. I think that these dreams are revealing as to my feelings and where I am going and what I need to do.

Dream: Graduation

I had this dream on Thursday March 24, 2016

I was working as a writer and that was my job.  Then I got called into a place where I was working for a meeting.  There was a woman sitting beside me and there was one sitting on the other side of the table.  It was a round table.  They were talking to me and seeing how I was doing with my job.  Then the one sitting at the other side of the table told me that she had to show me something and not to tell anyone because I wasn’t supposed to know about what it was.  She was holding a yellow packet that was stuffed full.

She opened the packet and showed me a sheet that had accomplishments and grades and the like on it.  She showed me low in the communication area.  She also said that I had to get 8 more points until I could graduate.  I explained to her that I had a job and thought that I had already graduated.  She told me that having a job is just like practicing but does not get me the points that I need.

I don’t know what those points are or how to get them.  I feel a bit apprehensive about getting the 8 points.  I am thinking, and it may be true or not, that when I get those 8 points that I will graduate and be done with this life.  I don’t think that it is the end, but the beginning of a new set of lessons for either another life here on this earth or somewhere else on a different existence.  Either way it is elation and sadness at the same time.

Dream about Changing

March 28, 2016.

I was working or doing something at a garden center.  My boyfriend (actually who I was having an affair with a very long time ago) came to see me.  He always comes around to use (?) me.  He is much younger that I and later found out that he had another girlfriend and was still married and told both of us that he got a divorce.  Oh that is one of my accounts on my life story. Anyway, he was waiting for me in the parking lot by his white van.  I went to meet him and he started saying something.  I put my hand up facing him and told him not anymore.  I just walked away after that.  I went to my cubby hole that I had my bedroom in at the house that I grew up in.  It had a small space under the landing that was the entrance to the house and living room.  I was putting little trinkets on shelves in the very small space.  They were little vases that had some liquid in them and I was careful in putting them on the shelf to not spill any of the liquid. Then I was back at the gardening center and there ended the dream.

I don’t think that this is about my boyfriend.  I think that he represented me being used and abused by family and I just had enough and said or gestured that I will not have any more of it. I simply walked away from all the drama.  I did not have any sad feelings with this and I did not even shed a tear. Going into that space and putting those small vases filled with liquid up on the shelves perhaps meant that I was putting things away or behind me.  The garden center would be about my life and the new beginning that I feel that I am involved in.  Well that is my summarization to this dream.