My Fight Against Diabetes

I was diagnosed with Diabetes when I went into the Hospital in June of 2019.  I did not believe that I had that at all.  I could not get my head wrapped around that because I did not have any of the warning signs of that disease.  So I started on a research into the disease.

I never had the sugar level or the High Blood Pressure prior to having that really bad headache.  It just did not make sense to me and still doesn't to a point.

I am an emotional eater and the last two years have been hell for me when we were dealing with Wells Fargo.  Very stressful.  Finally we were released from that stressful company the day after I went into the hospital and I do but much of the blame on them for causing the high stress levels, high blood pressure and the sugar to go sky high.Now I am expecting my body to go normal in about a year.  Another things that happened was my husband lost his high paying job because of downsizing 2 years ago, when we were going through the Wells Fargo stuff.  We had an ARM and that was fine then they changed their system about 5 years ago and I understood that interest would go up every 6 months, but what they were doing was upping it every month no matter what I paid them, it was never enough.  I got all the 7 am calls asking me when they were getting paid and most of the time it was a week or more before the bill was even due!  Yes calling them was very stressful and my husband could not take some of that stress off of me because he didn't have the time and could not longer get calls at his work.  So he would bring home candy bars and of course I would eat them.  Stress reduction for me but didn't realize the damage they were dong on top of the emotional stress.  I started eating crunchy stuff because I had to do it and chips and all that came into play with my eating.  It was horrible and cold not get out of it.  That GOD I am not doing that anymore! Normally I don't eat junk food and need crunchy stuff to sooth me and I never drank lots of anything,.  Which is weird because now with some of the supplements and their drugs that I was on I have to make myself drink lots.  I am just not thirsty that much.   This another reason I don't believe I have Diabetes.  I eat lots of salads too during the summer when I grow the lettuce and vegetable myself.   I love salads.  Junk food or going out to eat was only twice a month when we went shopping for groceries and food for the animals, mostly for our cats.  That was our treat.  I am not a big plate eater.   You beginning to see why I don't believe and are confused. What I have noticed is that my Rosacea is much worse now.


I know that I had Pancreatitis in 1996 before arranging my wedding.  He was there, but I was told by that doctor that I was an alcoholic, which I was not on account of my Ulcerative Colitis.


I did have some blurry vision and though that it was
my Optic Nerve Pit and I was not diagnosed with Diabetes then either, not even close.  I was born with it and it didn't really start bothering me until I hit 50 years old.  Still not diagnosed with the Diabetes then either.Most glasses that they gave me didn't really do justice to my long visions and I ended up just getting reading glasses.  No Diabetes  when I was in my early 40's.

You see in the pit it looks more like a hole and wondering how that was affecting me.  At the Eye Doctor they did show me wear I could and could not see on another picture that I don't have.  That was lots of my vision in my left eye and does and did affect my eyesight.  They did laser treatments and I will discus that in my next post.


I had to have an operation due to a hernia when I lifted a cinder block and I felt it rip.  Oh it did not hurt but felt something go loose in my gut.  Got all the tests to have that done and still no Diabetes reported.  Now I did have a blood clot in my 30's and so I took my sock and wore it to my operation that took 3 hours.  He did tell me that it may happen again and so I did not lift anything for one year, when it opened up yet again.  Exactly one year to the day!  Got the test them as well in my 50's and still not signs of Diabetes.  This was only about 5 years ago. That Hernia one lasted 5 hours and they had to take out my belly button.  Hence fat stomach.

This is why I can't get my head around that I have it now. Read that experience and the data that I got on some things that will surprise you: My Stroke At 62

What showed up was the headache that was a bleeding one and it really messed up my vision.  I just got two Laser treatments.  They weren't to right my eyesight but to prevent more damage from they said my Diabetes!

I also went to a dietitian and she told me about a diet that I should be on, and so I have been trying to be on that diet.  Then I went to a Dietitian and got more meds, which I think are poison.  I did not want to be on meds as I am more into supplements and natural thing gs.  Then I did lots of research on those and found some very interesting things about that and them and am taking them instead of the meds for High Blood Pressure, High Cholesterol and sugar.  I told my dietitian about what I am going to take and have taken for the last month and it helps lots in keeping my signs that I now have with the HP and Sugar.  We have a problem with the Glucometer that we have and told her that it just will not work in our house.  She doesn't believe us.  I don't believe it either but it works anywhere not here.  She is going to try it at her office next visit, but it will work there and not show her that it will not work where I live.  She she will think that I am telling a story.  My mom believes me and told her nurses and me that it will not work where I live because of the mountain.  It has nothing to do with electricity,  I don't know what is it.

I have started a exercise program and my dieting and all that with lots of information gained in the last few months.

Anoth thing they don't know that I used on a daily basis that does cause High Blood Pressure is a Water Sotener that uses Salt. 

Water Softener and a Raise in Blood PressureIn areas with very hard water, the softened water coming from your tap can actually add a significant amount of sodium to your diet. The harder the water, the more sodium the softening system must add to replace the dissolved calcium and magnesium.Apr 29, 2019
https://www.verywellhealth.com › is-my-water-softener-raising-my-blood-pr...

Water Softeners and High Blood Pressure - Verywell Health

I was also diagnosed with High Cholesterol.  Now I have found lots of different Cholesterol there is and so I was eating Peanut butter top be on the Zero Carb diet and found that it is very high in Cholesterol.  Now I am confused and they wonder why.  Eggs are supposed to be good now and so I bumped up my serving a few more times a week.  Although I am allergic to them but I was told that I had to eat protein with my morning coffee.  Eggs are now in the good cholesterol range and a few years they were very bad for you.  So What!!!??  Here is a place where you can find out about that:

High Cholesterol Does NOT cause Heart Disease ( very controversial)

I also posted this on my FaceBook Group 

What are You Eating and Your Health  and got this respon to my question:

• "I just read this artilce and shared it tomty group and cannot say that I have these diseases but I am on High Cholesterol pills or was. The frist thing they say it is from is smoking. I have never smoked in my life and the second was a high fat diet. Not so sure on this one either. I don't do alot of frying and if I do it is with the diet stuff like Olive Oil, which I have found burns because it cannot handle the high heat of some things. Stress now that I have had more than enough in the last year and that has changed drasttically. I am 62 now and so I would be consiered elderly in their age ranges based on this article."......."Not everyones body uses cholesterol the same way, there is a genetic predisposition there to an extent . However , cholesterol, especially the LDL type , has gotten a bad rap for years as if it had no benefits or played no role in important functions , its the ratio between the HDL , LDL , VLDL that determines healthy / acceptable values .Its not only fatty deposits in the vessels that are responsible for cardiovascular disease , its inflammation , constriction of the vessels, trauma to the vessels ( by high b/p ) oxidative stress , etc..
• Sugar is a big culprit . Heart disease started increasing in frequency after the advent of refined sugar . .. then processed food , high fructose syrup and so on .. And heart disease is common in diabetics & one of the key effects of diabetes we try to prevent."

Sister's Phone Call

I designed my own Business Card and took this photo of the rose bush on my trellis in my front yard.

A very interesting phone call came from my sister about a week or two ago and I was thinking of writing this blog and then not and then decided to do so. She called and said that we had to talk. What she said after that was nothing like a talk.  Telling me off with a bunch of lies is not talking.  She then told me that she has things to say to me and that she was just going to speak them.  Not a thing that she said was true and I don't know where the lies were coming form or why she feels the need to talk to me like I was 12 years old.

She did this same thing to me while sitting at the funeral home when my father died.  I am the oldest but she never treated me as such or even a normal perso but someone to control.  Not going there.  When I first wrote my story she told me to take it down, which I told her NO and a few others got into that as well on-line and in person.

Why I hang up on people.  I hang up on them if there is no way of sticking up for myself and am being fed lies and cannot speak up and explain their lies.  This is what I did to my sister as she would not listen to me as she was yelling at me with her lies.

 
We did not talk, she yelled at me and I hung up on her after trying to explain some things to her.   She called back d I told my husband that I did not want to talk to her and he ended up hanging up on her too.

We had gone to visit with my mom on the way to my doctors appointment and spend the night before there.
First thing she yells is that we are not to go to my moms and expect to be fed.  We never did that and I tried to tell my sister that.  The helpers did that and we thanked them for the meal, of which we never asked for in the first place. It wasn't like mom didn't get any ata all.  She ate Pizza with usa and I thought that was good as she really didn't like much of her food.  It was fun!  The next morning we were told to go to the store to pick up some things.  I had no idea it was for out breakfast and lunch.  I am sure mom got some breakfast after all too and when we had tuna casserole we offered her some and she denied it.  She said that she didn't like tuna.   She also had before at home when we were growing up. That and any other food except the pizza was left there for mom to eat.  It wasn't like it was all just for us two.

Then she goes into a rant about me not having a job and that I don't care for mom. I guess she thought somehow that I did care a lot about my mom and called her every day for about 3 weeks until she got it into her head that I was spreading gossip about her health to others through a nurse, whom I never talked to and didn't know form a hole in the ground.  She would tell me not to be on the Internet period or tell anyone about her and such.  I started hanging up on her when she would get into that and no matter what I said she didn't believe me. That was when I mailed her one of my brochures to show her what I do on the Internet.She finally found out how they knew and it was simple but I never to this day got an apology from her.  That is how she works!  I don't know what she is telling my sister about me or why she thinks that it is a good idea and that I would never know about these things.  I wouldn't if my sister
My sister mentioned that I never called her after my fathers death.  What a crock of bull!  I seriously don't know where that cane from and told her that was not true.

Abut me not having a job and that she took care of mom when she came out of the hospital at which time I was never told that she was even in the hospital.  I did and someone told me that she was in Florida for a couple of weeks and my mom did not both tho let me know that.  My sister's husband told me when I did call and asked to speak to my sister.didn't call me with her lies.

BIG flag with that.  Oh how perfect she is and doesn't know that I called my mom several times at my sister's.  I never got to talk to my sister because her husband told me that she went to Florida for a vacation.....leaving my mom with her husband.  I do call her but many times I had to hang up because of her outburst with something she though that I did and don;t have a clue that I didn't do it at all.  Oh and never an apology to that.

So while visiting my mom, she calls my sister several times when we walked down to visit my Aunt and Uncle.


I don't work for others but myself doing all the work that they do for her job.  My business is for real and it is: Artful Creations by Debra Allen

I work odd hours, mostly when my husband is at work and out of the house.  His job is shift work not a day job.  He hardly gets time off without working at another job.  He loves it that way and loves his jobs and would not give them up for anything except the shift work one.  They currently have him on night shift for whatever reason.  We have only one car and I guess my sister thinks that I can just tale off whenever.  So not true and I told her that too.  Designing my designs for Zazzle's blank products is hard work and the the self advertising that hours.  That is my job, my business. I don't sit and watch TV everyday or night.  I am not a couch potato either!  I just don't care for those things.  I would rather be creative with my designs that Zazzle sells.

Who designs my products? I DO,

Who Arranges the Photos that I take on my products, I DO,

Who advertises my designs on the products, I DO,

Who markets the products, I DO,

Who pays the taxes on the products, I DO,

How long does it take to do all this, MUCH MORe THAN A HOUR

Who makes my business card brochures and thing stationery, I DO,

Who PAYS for all this work, I DO

Do I make lots of money? Heck No not yet anyway.So my sister ranting off at me did not get her noticed and she was being lied to.

I did find something about that kind of things that she is doing and pitting siblings against each other.  It makes sense now and I now what she is and what she is purposefully doing and here is the article to read about it:

How Narcissistic Parents Scapegoat Their Children
What it's like to be targeted by a narcissistic parent.

The permanent scapegoat permits the narcissistic mother to make sense of family dynamics and the things that displease her without ever blemishing her own role as a “perfect” mother, or feeling the need for any introspection or action. She has a ready-made explanation for fractiousness or any other deviation from what she expects her family to look like.


Yes indeed this makes sense as to why she is telling my sister lies about me and telling me not to do the Internet stuff and my blog because nobody is interested in things like that. Yes to cover her butt! Another family member told her what I said on my blog and got me into really big trouble with all family members. I think that I was taken out of my parents will when we were going to have this house and my husband was to say that we would never sell it. My mom controlling actions and words. At this point in time I don't want anything that she has as there is always strings attached! My sister also has power of attorney with my mom's estate and that was one of the things that she pointed out to me on her phone call. She did that on her own and I was never told that she was going to do that and leave me out of things. Leave me out....like I am not supposed to talk or have feelings or even be alive....HUH!!!

So now I know why my dad wanted me write about all this and to keep it going/

I am also being told to do what the doctors tell me and to take the drugs that they Tell me to take....Uh not on your life after I researched them in my previous blog post. I am suppose to just do as she says and my sister to who says the same thing. They want me quiet and for what....just as the article says, so I can keep being the scapegoat. Not now! Noot now that I know for a fact what she is doing and why. Not going to happen.

UPDATE:  My sister still clled me a few other times and once she asked me to be there at Christmas to watch my mom.  I could not and will not because that was set up a long time ago that Christmas was her time and Thanksgiving was my time.  That is the way it is.  She calls me to argue about me stealing food from my mom, which I never have ever done that.  For puishment she told me that she would never tell mre when my mom is in the hospital aby more and all that stuff.  

Another thinkg that I must clear yp is that Mom when she got sick after getting drunk she also told me a vew months ago that she never took another drink after that because it upset her so much witht hat.  Now when I asked my Auntu to tell me that truth she woujldm't and I wonder why. She and my uncle have now passed recently and because of Bovid-19 coulcn't see either of them. Ao aad.

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Letter To A Friend

I have been corresponding with an old friend.  We were friends in Florida and then we lost touch and found each other again about 3-4 years ago.  I knew his whole family and when I got divorced and moved that is when we lost touch.  Since then we have been corresponding with each other almost on a monthly basis.

Don't get your mind in the gutter with all this.  My husband doesn't know really that much about him but he can and sometimes I read the letters that we send back and forth.  There is no love with this friend, but much friendship.  He is in prison now and is about to get out in less than a year now.  The last letter that I sent to him was an update of what has been going on in my life since his last letter which was a few months ago.  Life just happens too fast sometimes and I am sharing this letter with you so that you too can get a sense of just how fast life can get.  I will give another update at the end of this letter.

Here it is:

I am sorry that this is so late.  OMG things have been happening so fast and so much has happened since my last letter to you.  I can’t get a breath in.  Every time that I thought about writing you something else would come up.

First off we were dealing with Wells Fargo about our mortgage and all that.  That took days to fill out their forms and find everything for them.  I know where our financial status is now, but it was not smooth at all.  They tried to hurry us into sending all that paperwork in….like a day.  Then when Dennis took it all to work with him to fax it to their office, he went through all the paperwork and the things that we had to add to that and removed the pay stubs that I had in the pile.  I got so mad at him and we could not fax it to their office that day, the day that they wanted it.  Then, the fax number they gave us did not work, so they gave us another number and that too did not work.  Then they gave us yet a third number and that didn’t work wither.  He brought all the paperwork back home and I called HELLS FARGO to see if I could e-mail the scanned documents……..found out their office was closed that Friday, when we were trying to send stuff to them.  Not one person returned my call.  All their phones were down.  I took a look at the paperwork again and found that doing the loan modification would adversely affect our credit….like our credit is good right now at all.  So with all that, I decided to not go through their plan at all.  Talk about stress levels!  This was just the beginning….or middle if you count what happened with my mom and daughter’s that I will have little or no contact with.

Duke and Charlie 2011

Duke 2015

….and then my neighbor across the street had to put his dog down and so he asked us to bring Duke over to say his last goodbyes and be with Brutis for his last hours.  So as we were over there, there is a set of steps that go up to a doggy door to his porch.  There is like 4 or five.  Duke tries to go up them and doesn’t fall down them, but falls off of them.  Now he couldn’t walk back home and I know that was time.  That was a Saturday.  Monday I had to call Duke’s Vet and tell them that that I wanted to schedule him to be put down.  Now they know that Duke will not get into the car.  I tried to get him in it a couple of years ago and I got his front legs in and went to life his back behind in and he pulled his front legs right out of the car.  Well he rolled under the car….so getting him into the car to go anywhere was not an option.  They told me that when I could get him in the car that they would do it in their office.  Well we didn’t want to put him to sleep in someplace that was not home.  So I asked the receptionist if she had someone else that we could call and she gave us another Vet.  He did make arrangements with me for that Thursday afternoon.  Dave, those were the longest 4 days.  I also had t make arrangements with a pet crematory and they would pick him up and do the cremation and then bring him back.  When the other vet came to our house, he was an older man and very nice and we chatted for a feew until we all went inside to get Duke.  We told him what our Vet said and he couldn’t believe it.  We will be switching our other animals to him when we need another vet.  OK, now the financial part.  Our vet was going to charge us for that service and putting him down to the tune of $500.00!!!.  The vet that came out to put Duke down at home only charged us $70.00 and the cremation was $201.40.  That was money that was not in the budget, but I had to find it somewhere. 

Yay! My husband got a big check from his job that he is a Crisis worker for.  I got all the bills, including the mortgage caught up and was even able to pay the property taxes with………………  That was stressful for the both of us as those property taxes were due in 2 days.  So he had to go stand in line, a couple of them, for hours so that we would not have a penalty on them.  Well we found out that Hells Fargo finally set up an escrow account, after many YEARS they told us that they couldn’t do, and paid our house taxes.  Thing is, I didn’t get a receipt yet.  I have been too busy to call the tax office to get that.  I guess that is another thing on Dennis’s list to go there on the way home to get that.  After going through all this crap with them I see on Face Book news about the fraudulent activity going on with Wells Fargo and that they fired 5,300 employees for making fraudulent customer accounts to get the incentives for some kind of commission.  I have no idea how that is going to affect us yet.  It will, no doubt.

….and then I ordered a few things from Fingerhut, like new shoes for me because no store around here sells the kind that I like and an A/C for the bedroom and a soft drawer storage unit so that things will be off the floor and neat in the basement.  Well I got everything but my shoes and to file a report for that.  Funny that when the UPS guy came and I was told that the shoes would be in that shipment, he was a new driver.  I asked him if he had something else for me and he said, No.  So I went on-line and Fingerhut sent me an affidavit report that I needed to fill out and send back.  Well I sent it back to them and I waited a week and then I called them.  Come to find out they didn’t get that e-mail back. So I did one over the phone.  Their report stated that I did get my shoes, but I told them they must be sitting at the UPS center because I never got them.  I told the lady what I was told by the new UPS guy.  Two days later I get a notice that they shipped me another pair of shoes and that I should be getting them within a week.  We shall see.

…….And then my coffee machine decided that it was going to have all the coffee go outside of the filter and clog it all up making all the coffee over fill onto the counter and floor.  I did manage to get one cup in a cup though.  Stress level is so high right now that I think I am going to explode!  Seriously, explode!

.….but that isn’t the end of it by any means……..Well our basement has flooded several times now and we always thought it was from those hard rains……well our basement flooded a few days ago and it had not rained in a week or more.  We deducted that it was the Hot Water Heater.  We went to LOWES to get a new one…..and they changed all the codes here in this friggen country.  We got a new o0ne some 15 years ago when we started renovating this house……..I was so pissed, but we ordered everything that we needed and also had them come out and install it.  No big deal right……………………?

……..and then, the installers get here and we find that they will not install it because there is something wrong with the electric from the box to the Hot Water Tank and it isn’t enough voltage.  They walk out and so we are left hanging because I have no money for this.  I try to call LOWES to get the charges off of my card.  I was put on hold by 3 different departments.  So we had to go there and do it……..but Dennis is on-call and gets a call on our way there.  Hell, Dave we didn’t even make it out of our neighborhood.  Stress Level just went through the roof!!!  We did manage to get there and the bill taken care of, but…..there is an extra charge to my account and I am NOT going t pay for it.  The installer did NOTHING.  On Tuesday I will have to call Lowes and get my card straightened out.  I really hate doing all this.  People tell me that I am a “know-it-all”.  Well I do know a lot because I ask questions, do research and follow up.  I wish that I could just trust people to do the right thing.  I really don’t want to know it all.  I think my brain is going to explode with all this information.  Grrrr.

The installer didn’t even find it to shut off the Water Heater or turn the breaker off, so we were asking LOWES how to do it ourselves and he was kind enough to tell us how to shut off the water.  Dennis tried to do it and could not get the knobs to turn.  Meanwhile our basement is flooded by all the water that leaked out of the Hot Water Tank.  What a mess my basement is!

……and then Charlie’s depression really kicks in and he was up all night last night crying and all day the next day and will not leave my side.  Every time that I sit down on the chair in the living room he has to sit in my lap.  He has to lay right up next to my head in the bed too.  Poor baby.  He and Duke were best buddies….oh and we now have fleas in the house, from Duke.  When his body died, the fleas all hopped off of that free feeding source.  We had to find money to get flea collars then, but they didn’t work the first 24 hours like they had the last time.  So…….so…..so…I am tired of someone playing games with me and torturing me and poking me to slowly bleed me dry.  I had a couple of nightmares the other night.  It reflected how I feel about our finances. 

I was being held hostage in someone’s apartment.  There were two guys that were dark skinned, like India.  They kept poking me with sharp objects that would make me bleed. Next thing that I knew I was laying in a wheel barrow full of broken glass and every move that I made would cut me and make me bleed….a slow bleed.  Next thing that I remember is that I made it to a neighbor’s apartment and I was still in that wheel barrow.  I was trying to get the black woman to help me and the guys came to the open door of her apartment looking for me and told her that I was just making things up and not to believe me.  That was the end of the dream. 

….and then…….I was on-top of my finances and now have to find an electrician to fix the electrical wiring in this house.  Oh I did my research and the county has changed those laws 5 times in 7 years.  I have no money and our credit cards are under the maxed out limit now and I was paying them off slowly, but doing that.  Oh and I forgot that the Student Loan that my husband has was in deferment, but just came back into our budget again.  That is over $100.00 a month now.  With all this and the raise in taxes for income that we just noticed on his paycheck, (another story that we have no explanation for yet) we have no choice bu to put this work on the credit cards. I can’t control anything, nothing, nada.

….and then the last dream that I had ………I was at my wedding, don’t know who any of the other people in it are.  We were sitting down to the dinner reception.  We all go out into the front of the church.  It was a big and beautiful church with a winding staircase.  The guests were making their way outside.  There were three pastors with us.  The honeymoon came up in the conversation and I was scared to be with my new husband and he was a bit on the aggressive side about the consummating.  The pastors were talking to me and I pulled one aside to talk to him.  I had told him that I was raped.  He understood my hesitation.  The guy that I married was tall, dark and he had a pear-shaped body, only he wasn’t fat. He brought my new husband in and we all talked and discussed this problem.  My new husband agreed that he would be gentle and I agreed that I would try it and not let my fear take over.  We were in agreement.  We worked it out.  That was the end of that dream. 

I am thinking that things are going to work out somehow.  All this in a couple of weeks and I hope it all stops and gets better……..nah….we still have to pay Home Owners Dues and taxes for next year…..but those bridges will be crossed another day.  Oh which reminds me……They are taking more taxes and SS and all that out of my husband's paycheck.  We were not told of this and it really crunched my budget yet again.  He did not get a raise, so we are perplexed.  That takes about $150.00 per paycheck from paying our bills.  My husband is working three jobs and the taxman and the debtors don’t give us a break.  

Meanwhile, I am finally getting noticed and have sold 9 products from my store!  It is slow and I realize this.  We don’t get paid until the threshold is met, which is much lower than all the content writing sites, that I stay away from now.  I will be able to cash out at $50.00 instead of $100.00.  They do hold payment for 30 days though because this company has a 30 day money back guarantee and instead of paying us and the product being returned they just hold it.  That makes a lot of sense.  I don’t want to spend that money and then have to find a way to return it if the customer is not satisfied. You can visit my store and you can share it too.  It is Lady_G_Boutique

….and then, and then, and then…..there is a song if you heard it called “Along Came John (Jones)” that all this is about and I posted some of this on Face Book and someone commented back about all this and this is what I commented back….and along came Ray (that is his name and we are friends)….he commented back, and I get a good laugh every time that I remember this)…..he said that I was a “smartass”.  LOL LOL LOL  I posted the youtube of the song and he got a laugh out of it too and said that he holds to his comment….that he still thinks that I am a smartass.

Updates:  

• Wells Fargo finally got the message that we were no longer interested in their plan. We got a letter and it mentioned about a Foreclosure and I went ballistic on the voicemail to the guy that was handling our case.  Wells Fargo is in deep trouble and is being brought up on all kinds of charges.
• I finally got my shoes from Fingerhut!!
• We had to find an electrician to run the correct line from the breaker box to the place that the new water heater is to be installed.  We changed the place and need to inform the plumber of where we want to put it.  Nobody wants to go down into our crawlspace.  On said that they were afraid to go down there because of spiders and such.  For goodness sakes I have been down there and crawling around many time.  What wimps.  At any rate, he said that if we cleaned up down there that he may drop the charges from $400.00.  We have one side done completely and the other side is about 80% done.  The insulation keeps falling because we live on a mountain that moves a lot. No matter how my parents tried to get it to stay up, it only lasted for a few years.  Stapling it doesn't hold as we have found out too.  I got an idea that might work and allow some flexibility of holding it up....Bungee cords.  We will see after all this fiasco of putting in a new Hot Water Tank.

Picture of before and almost after the crawlspace being cleared out

 The far side is what is left to clean. There are a couple more large boards leaning against the far wall.  I have to lay on my back or something to pull them out.  I cannot get to the top so my husband will have to get the rake and rake it out. He is also going to stuff the insulation back up.  I hope it stays up there for a while, at least until the electrician is finished his work.  We are taking down and moving those utility shelves and the new water heater will go on the other side of the water softener that you see on the top picture close to the door.

So there you have it.  The fun never stops around here.

A Couple of Dreams

I have many dreams that I remember, some I do not write down and some that I do.  These are dreams that I have had since my last blog in my life story blog where I was told Not To Post my life story on-line because it makes others feel uncomfortable. I think that these dreams are revealing as to my feelings and where I am going and what I need to do.

Dream: Graduation

I had this dream on Thursday March 24, 2016

I was working as a writer and that was my job.  Then I got called into a place where I was working for a meeting.  There was a woman sitting beside me and there was one sitting on the other side of the table.  It was a round table.  They were talking to me and seeing how I was doing with my job.  Then the one sitting at the other side of the table told me that she had to show me something and not to tell anyone because I wasn’t supposed to know about what it was.  She was holding a yellow packet that was stuffed full.

She opened the packet and showed me a sheet that had accomplishments and grades and the like on it.  She showed me low in the communication area.  She also said that I had to get 8 more points until I could graduate.  I explained to her that I had a job and thought that I had already graduated.  She told me that having a job is just like practicing but does not get me the points that I need.

I don’t know what those points are or how to get them.  I feel a bit apprehensive about getting the 8 points.  I am thinking, and it may be true or not, that when I get those 8 points that I will graduate and be done with this life.  I don’t think that it is the end, but the beginning of a new set of lessons for either another life here on this earth or somewhere else on a different existence.  Either way it is elation and sadness at the same time.

Dream about Changing

March 28, 2016.

I was working or doing something at a garden center.  My boyfriend (actually who I was having an affair with a very long time ago) came to see me.  He always comes around to use (?) me.  He is much younger that I and later found out that he had another girlfriend and was still married and told both of us that he got a divorce.  Oh that is one of my accounts on my life story. Anyway, he was waiting for me in the parking lot by his white van.  I went to meet him and he started saying something.  I put my hand up facing him and told him not anymore.  I just walked away after that.  I went to my cubby hole that I had my bedroom in at the house that I grew up in.  It had a small space under the landing that was the entrance to the house and living room.  I was putting little trinkets on shelves in the very small space.  They were little vases that had some liquid in them and I was careful in putting them on the shelf to not spill any of the liquid. Then I was back at the gardening center and there ended the dream.

I don’t think that this is about my boyfriend.  I think that he represented me being used and abused by family and I just had enough and said or gestured that I will not have any more of it. I simply walked away from all the drama.  I did not have any sad feelings with this and I did not even shed a tear. Going into that space and putting those small vases filled with liquid up on the shelves perhaps meant that I was putting things away or behind me.  The garden center would be about my life and the new beginning that I feel that I am involved in.  Well that is my summarization to this dream.